I will use cadmium so that it will burn as hot in the air as it does in my heart. A spark of yellow red if seen from a ship.

I did not lose you. I found you.
I did not lose you. You are lost.
If you love me you will try to find me. But I must leave a signal. And that is all I must do.
I have come to a furious point in my life where I try to help God do my will. But God has always done my will on Gods own terms and will not accept help.
Not unlike you, mermaid.