This, is the secret to good music

It is neither skill nor even passion. Yinwe Malmstein is skilled. Bores people to death with skill. The number of passionate musicians is enormous. Most of these are just embarassing to watch,
The secret is the Spirit. You must find the Spirit. And then you must give it to the listener. You must be ecstatic about giving it away, to better someone elses life.
Because its easy to keep it to yourself and enjoy it. That mastuebation. Yet another mistake in music.

you had me at ka-CHING

my new Tao: bold “statement” jewelry

chunky cocktail rings

like that one

that Vera Wang micro-pave

“engagement” ring

it lit up the room, and said (it’s a “statement”, after all):

“she’s MINE”

the chocolate and flowers will only last a week,

but she’ll keep a piece of jewelry she really likes

longer

everything became facetious, we just didn’t know it

the latter day, the 21st century.

it was innocent enough: we just put quotes  around too many words.

midlife crisis:revisited. again and again.

Gen X Has a Midlife Crisis – NYTimes.com

there was a line in the print version that didn’t make it online – what’s up with that? did they run out of bits?

It should go without saying that a generation is a demographic fiction, and that a stage of life is something of a literary conceit.

I guess that will be my take-away from this article, from that book. instead of struggling along with the author, the reviewer, and all the millions of people worldwide who struggle with a notion of mid-life crisis, I’ll just say “no.” I’m saying, there is no such thing as mid-life. it’s a made up literary construct, akin to the middle of the story. we live  a lierary existence, we read our lives, unconsciously .  and we believe that there is a beginning, middle, and end.

of course, if you live this way, if this is they way you think, then don’t listen to me. to me, your life is fictionalized, by you, and by your culture, just so you don’t have to really think about what you are doing..another quote:

The sense that his life has been wasted — stalled by mysterious external forces rather than his own failure of will —

There it is – the author writing your character for you. The people in you hometown said you should act your age – and you listened to them! that, to me, is a waste of your life.

here’s another line that really struck me:

At a certain point, Dad buys a sports car, or starts a rock band, or has an affair or walks out on Mom or quits the law firm to make goat cheese. When this kind of thing happens to Mom, it’s not a crisis but an awakening.

Isn’t that odd?  It’s so true – it’s called a fucking crisis if your a man!  A crisis! The crisis is that you see how they’ve harnessed you and given you a feed bag (and a shitbag, behind), so that you don’t know what your eating, and your presence doesn’t get the streets dirty.  I’m glad women have awakenings – wouldn’t begrudge anyone an awakening. unfortunately, these awakenings, because they don’t get stamped CRISIS, can result in the flowering of narcissism.

your midlife crisis should be this: that you haven’t given back. haven’t given anything.

oh, you’ve “bent over backwards for those ungrateful children of yours”, or, you’ve “given, and given, and given, until you just can’t give anymore.”  But, really, you can’t evens start giving until you’re free.

SATIRE V. RIDICULE

my point is this: the use of satire requires a degree of intellectual sophistication-it’s not for dummies. with the understanding that satire is a literary tool, which can be used to engage the viewer’s mind to examine an ugly reality, for the purposes of then changing that reality for a better one – with that understanding, satire can advance humankind.

if the viewer does not have this degree of sophistication, then satire does not exist, regardless of the intention of the performer!

my other point is: the world has become too dumb for satire, although almost all art and commentary contains satire as a de facto element. so, the effect is actually NOT positive change, but rather ribald mockery of the weak.

you see, my generation, and the generation before mine (the 60’s!), grew up with satire. we actually read a magazine called National Lampoon, whose title is lost on subsequent generations, because they dont’ know the word lampoon (to my point). and our generation invented Saturday Night Live, for crying out loud.

for at least 100 years prior to the 60’s – I’m not being exact here – satire was virtually non-existent in the social mind. Beginning with the stark suppression of the Victorians, the order of the day was to avoid social commentary of any kind. of course, satire was invented by Plato, so there have been generations and generations steeped in satire.  just try the late baroque (Voltaire).

but that’s because satire is comprehensible in a time of social change for the better.  it must be for the better, however.  vacuous social change – the kind we have now – can not recognize satire.

I began to worry about this years ago when “The Simpsons” was discovered by prime time. Matt Groening was at that point the most brilliant satirist of our time (IMHO).  But, he was satirizing “in safety.”  In other words, the part of society he was critiquing would never see his show.  I mean, he is from Portland – everybody in Portland is a blithering intellectual (almost – once again, don’t get stuck).  When it started hitting the Tracey Ullman show in 1987,  I mean, c’mon – the people who even knew about Fox in those days you could count on Anne Boelyn’s right hand!

Imagine then that 10 years later, I’m sitting in a mobile home in Iowa, drinking PBR with a pudgy guy with male balding pattern, who works in a dangerous chemical factory, where he eats his lunch – and his laughing his ass off at Homer Simpson! Meanwhile, his skateboarding son is doing crack in his bedroom, and his wife is getting her hair done.

I mean, wake up dude!  That’s you on the screen, living the American <pipe> dream!  You are not supposed to laugh at that!

But then it got worse: two social savants appeared out of nowhere, to totally take the American society to a new depth of understanding: Tray and Matt. South Park totally scared me.  This was full-on, and nobody got the horror of it!  Do you see?  Everybody got the hate of it, everybody got the porn of it, the depravity.  But that’s not getting it.

My final point: it like taking the prophet for the comedian, and the comedian for the prophet.

zappa: shut up and play yer guitar: still rules

just received my like 6th copy of “Shut Up and Play…” from Moondog Music in Dubuque Iowa. Jared doesn’t even know that we was wrapping it up just for me! Unless that is Jill’s job…

you know, the greatest thing about this wild, drug-fueled, hippie-loving music is….that it’s NOT drug-fueled, or alcohol-driven, nor does Frank even want to be a hippie-anything…this is a real musician, and all that you hear is music.  he got to this point by looking within and practicing.  no other aids.

You

found the I Ching definition of “fate” and “exhaustion” very meaningful


This is interesting, because I Ching (Confucious) doesn’t always defer to something called “fate’. as is common in Western traditions. No, fate is a specific condition, and only happens at a certain juncture – when there is absolutely nothing that can be done.  It’s mathematical reality, as opposed to something like “diplomats” fall back on when they want to go to war.

It’s much more like the Jewish situation in the Holocaust: there was nothing to do.

quality

when I see the hustlers on Washington Ave, selling designer perfume and cologne out of a Saks sack, for like $10 a bottle, I’m reminded of the qualitative difference between “making a buck” and “paying $2000 a year in taxes.”

review: The Buddha: A Film by David Grubin (on PBS)

This film appeared on PBS last night:
http://www.pbs.org/thebuddha/

It was 2 hours long, and I don’t want to be dismissive – there was a lot of content in there.  But my overall impression was that, although presented as a documentary on the life of Siddhartha Gautama, it was, rather, a hodgepodge – that’s the best term I can bring.

Here are the two things I liked (my mom, my therapist, Oprah, always say to start with the things you liked…):

1) Actual practicing Yogis talking about the Yoga Sutra as a means to deeper meditation; NOT a means to physical improvement.  This is always important in Amerika, to curb the yoga-as-gym-class trend.

2) The main message of the Buddha: just be yourself.  All this other shit – punishing the body to free the mind, hours of searching for the true path – all that was a waste of his time!  that was his point.  The truth is right here, and available to everybody.  You just have to wake up!!

1. Life means suffering.

2. The origin of suffering is attachment.

3. The cessation of suffering is attainable.

4. The path to the cessation of suffering is the middle way between the two extremes of excessive self-indulgence (hedonism) and excessive self-mortification (asceticism).

The thing about the Buddha is this: just like Jesus of Nazareth, the bulk of what we know and what is discussed is legend, hearsay, popular belief, and, plainly, just a lot of misguided, unfounded, unscholarly, opinion. I am not advocating a deep scientific investigation into the the historical foundation of Buddhism or Christianity – in fact, I believe that many people are missing the deeper spiritual meaning, and its benefits to life, that Buddha intended. Indeed, part of the “story” of Buddha was that, after his enlightenment, he was reluctant to go out and preach, because he was afraid his message would get lost and distorted.  How ’bout that!

So this documentary is a collection, a la Bill Moiers, of mostly Western, academics and poets, talking about what (little) they know about Buddhism. this might be ok, if you, the viewer, know that bullshit abounds, and that the truth requires a knife with a sharp blade.  But that’s not who is watching this?

What does Jane Hirshfeld (http://www.pbs.org/thebuddha/featured-scholars-and-poets/#hirshfield) know of the Buddha? She’s a poet, so maybe she knows everything!?!? Or, W.S. Merwin, another poet, and one whom I have sort of worshiped my whole life.  But is connection to Buddhism is that he has “studied” with Robert Aitken in Hawaii.

These two poets appear a lot in this film.

Then, there a real scholars( Robert Tenzin Thurman) – who has translated the texts and who is absolutely reliable in terms of the most difficult of all aspects of understanding Buddhism: that the original text, including the Upanishads and Bhagavad Gita, are impossible to translate, but essential to the understanding to the Buddha.

I amnot saying these people don’t have the right to their opinions – that old saw!  Have your fucking opinion!  Just don’t broadcast yourself as someone who knows anything!  Remember to add IHMO to all your sentences!

Then, there are a few appearences by, oh yeah, the His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama.  The, like 3, things he says throught the 2 hours film are profound.  He says that desire can NOT be a bad thing – you must have a fiery desire!  How else would you explain the motivation for enlightenment, for example.  But the desire to kill and destroy.  “That is bad.”